Dreams

Whats dream chasing?

When we are young, we always talk about being ‘somebody’ when we grow up. Be it a doctor, lawyer, teacher or a musician or artist, but we all long to be someone.

Now at my ripe old age of 28, when i am still talking about dream chasing, it feels so childish and kiddish to some of my peers. But does growing older means that we lose our right to chase or have a dream?

Being a dream chaser, i feel a constant struggle to keep up. With both the realities of life and the views of family and friends.

It gets especially hard when you realize that

1) Friends much younger then you have already reached the level you can only dream of,

2) School mates who get grew up with you are already well accomplished in their own fields of work. (accomplished does not mean happier though)

3) Being asian, your parents start asking if you are gonna straighten life out as an ‘adult’.

4) Your bank account starts to run dry and you realize you have bills due soon. Thats when passion starts to run out too… =(

5) And the worst of all, self-doubt. Self-doubt is a killer. It kills you slowly but surely when you let that little bugger in. Its like a voice in your head that constantly brings you down telling you that you are not younger enough, not talented enough, not smart or pretty enough. Mostly never good enough. All the negative things that eats you from the inside out. And once it gets you down, it takes so much courage to get up and try again. (my main struggle all these time)

But does all the above means i have to stop chasing my dreams and live life with regrets?

As the saying goes, “No one on their death bed ever wished they spent more time in the office.”

And recently this constant thought kept flooding my mind. In this corporate rat race, who wins? And if you win? The only consolation is being the number one rat. But nonetheless, still a rat.

I have decided I will be no rat. And I will live life as it brings me.

So, follow me on my adventure… I don’t wanna do this alone.. 🙂

 

Dreaming on with much love,

-Samantha-